Monday, October 24, 2005
7:34 PM
Whoever is reading this post. I'd like to say one thing to you.
SCREW YOUYes it says screw you. Don't try to squint our pretend u cant see it. Cause i purposely put it in huge letters so even the vision impaired can see.
This blog is supposed to be frickin dead and yet people still come here to read it.
WHY!?
i now use this blog for the sole purpose of pouring out my feelings and since everybody complains to me that my blog is so empty and i should update, dont read it then, dont bother to come back here to read the 'blog that never gets updated'. Do u know y u read this dead blog? cuz u all lead boring and useless lives.
Anything i say here is not to be referred to me as this blog is supposed to be DEAD and everything i type here will NOT be referred to me and dont even ASK me about the topics i write about here please. Or else get ready to be greeted with a nice fresh F*ck You.
I swear people are getting irritating. if this blog is so dead then please dont waste your time to read it. I cant b bothered to talk to anyone else so unless i pour my feelings out to something, namely my blog, i will explode.
Yes u sadistic bastards out there. i will EXPLODE. wanna see it? yes i would too. I cant b bothered anymore. Jo please stop trying. i cant b bothered. and i dun think i am going to change myself. i cant anymore. dun say i nvr tried. i just cant.
Yes what jo said in her space truly is inviting. but i heard it hurts. so the gun is always the best.
if anyone DARES to talk to me about wad i write in this blog, prepare to die.
i cant be bothered to celebrate my bday anymore.
DONT ask why.
DONT ask me either.
People will NOT live properly if i'm still here. So what else can i do?
Mind you i arranged my bday FOUR WHOLE FUCKING MONTHS in advance. and wad happened?? SOME PEOPLE tell me they cant make it NOW. FUCKING NOW.
My life is screwed up and i cant change it.
I've lost the will to live.
Sorry jo. dun lecture me again please.
i cant take it anymore. everything just comes so fast.
I cant even be bothered to meet up for class gaths anymore or open my hse to gaths. I'm changing. i dont wanna change but some changes are inevitable.
I've just got too many problems which i cant solve by myself and i cant share. so wad do i do? rot inside. yes. smart.
So i shall burn inside, yes i will. i mean the pain is no longer the factor. i know it wayyy too well.
Please, whoever is reading this, dont bother to find out wad's wrong with me or lecture me about anything. especially like what confucious should be telling himself that what he tells everyone is just bs and he should jump off a cliff.
Ciao.
Gd day.
En Claire Vous