Tuesday, May 30, 2006
9:26 PM
i absolutely hate my parents..
dont ask why cause i am so pissed i will tell u myself.
i just hate the way they cant understand me and they are always so restrictive. i mean they dont even let me use my own pocket money to buy stiff which i want.
what the heck!?!?
what IS pocket money for. idiots.
they think all pocket money for is for buying food in the sch canteen. and after i leave the sch. the money becomes THEIRS again and i cant use it for my own stuff.
they just PISS ME OFF. i cant even buy my own comics. and when i wanted to use my own money. my stupid mom told me that I SHOULD NOT BUY COMICS AND I SHOULD BUY NOVELS CAUSE THEY HELP MY ENGLISH.
like i am CONFIDENT of my english. i dont NEED novels to speak proper english. i can like so read newspapers. i cant STAND them.
i ALWAYS get visions of me running away. they dont REALISE how much i hate them no matter how much it seems obvious to them. i just wanna pack my bags and leave. reject every call they try to call me with and go backpacking. i know i cant survive but it doesnt look like i can survive in this house myself.
i cant stay over at my friend's house. i cant use my own pocket money to buy stuff even though it's MY pocket money. they are SO bent on the fact that the money remains THEIRS even though they give it to me.
the money is still MINE. NO u cannot buy that! cause the money is still MINE.
i am frickin pissed. and the most stupid thing is that my dad expects me to call him whenever i leave sch and whenever i get home. does he not believe that i can get home myself? does he think i am some hoplesss child who needs my dada and mama wherever i go? and that i need the guidance of my parents before i can walk?
and when i went to van's chalet. all i wanted was to stay over or something. and when i stayed till 1, they got pissed. cant i just stay over? wont it make EVERYTHING better. i am NOT stupid. i CAN live away from home for one night.
and i had to completely defy them when i wanted to stay at jon's house that night? i had to ignore my dad on the phone and call my mom instead. i seriously cant be bothered with him. i hope to give my mom hell after my dad goes to canada.
i hope she realises how much i hate them both.
she will so realise.
after he leaves.
i seriously dont care. i cant b bothered to celebrate mother's day or father's day anymore. they aint worth it. maybe they shouldnt have raised me. if only they know that i would become a child who hated them so. maybe they are better with my sister.
i dont care.
i'm an angsty child.
they made me that way.
and i will show them.
hahahahaha.
BYE =))