Friday, September 15, 2006
7:08 PM
school was compltely useless today. except that i think i grasped a bit of chem. something i havent done in a very long time.
c math was amusing. alex ng was such a hopelss teacher. he's too nice. while he was teaching. 5 peopler were sleeping in class. n when he turned around he said that we can sleep. cause if we sleep, the class makes lesser noise =.=
nvm. he's a cool dude. but he just nods his head too much with that goofy smile.
well.. school often gets boring without new stuff. and my mind always drifts away. i'm a daydreamer. sorry.
and my mind jumped from topic to topic. goodness. as if it were my life story n my life was about to end soon.
and suddenly i started reflecting of various shit in my head..
and i got to the topic of love. hmm...
why is it that so many people online have love in their nicknames when they obviously havent experienced real love before. and. what is love. is love just sex n stuff. hmm.. i dont think so.
well i havent experienced love before. cause i just ignore it. but. love should be about. feeing wanted. we were doing this li jie wen da during chinese class about this girl who showed attitude towards the new man which her mom brought home. her mom was a widow. and that man never returned. when the girl got married. her mom refused to be in the wedding picture cause it wasnt lucky to take a picture with a widow.
and it got me thinking. i think love is just all about wanting to be wanted. look at all the lonely people out there. without anyone to love. or to love anyone. chances are that they are as lonely as heck n they die a lonely person.
i think it's natural that the human soul wants to be wanted. we want someone who we know would still want us even when we are old n wrinkly. someone who would show the same kinda love to u. and then. i started thinking again.
if that was true. why are there so many superficial and two-faced people in the world? if they really wanted to be wanted. why do they still act that way. all people want is for people to let them know that they exist. and that he's human like everyone else and that he actually needs people to be there for him.
isnt it the right thing to do? to stand up for people? i realised something. people like eevin, stanford. all the losers in the class who gets made fun of all the time. what happens when they go home? if they dont have a loving enough family, wont they just wanna die.
back to the topic on love.
why do people say the phrase 'iloveyou' if they dont mean it? love isnt just a four letter word. it actually means something. like. how can u say F*** YOU to a person at the top of your lungs and later say that u dont mean it? the word itself has a meaning. and it's a meaning which would hurt someone. and so. the word love also means something. common pisconception by people is that u can say iloveyou as many times as your lungs can handle cause it doesnt really matter. but how if that person feels the same way? and would u blurt out. JUST KIDDING! i hope not. or u would have a rather screwed up mind.
so. i feel that love has a deep meaning to it. something we dont really know till we experience it for real. not someone who just finds a girl. WHOA. I LOVE YOU. and they get into a relationship. which chances are. hmm.. which always never works out. so what the use of getting hurt unless u know that person's the right other half?
maybe it's the fear of getting rejected. which keeps people from expressing their feelings. i know it from first hand experiences. not getting rejected. i mean the fear =.=
so is that why there is an ageing population in the world today? cause there isnt enough love and enough offspring? i know i said earlier that sex isnt everything. but it can be a clear guide to see how love is affecting the society. is the world gonna be filled with OLD PEOPLE. are we gonna go to orchard road n see all the "young people" with wrinkles. is the modern day world gonna be filled with old people.
i dunno. but would the population become a bloody INVERTED CONE!? would they start to import old people. i hope not.
love. say it if u mean it. dont say it if u cant experience it.
live life. love lots.
peace.
bye!
PS. exams truly suck. i need 48 hrs a day. can someone give me 48 hrs a day.